Don’t Let Small Failures Blind you from Bigger Goals

Finally back writing. Have not been writing as frequently ever since I took up ACCA (an accounting qualification) whilst serving in the Army.

But guess what? Someone’s finally free!! Finally completed my mandatory national service 2 months ago. Indeed, mundane 2015 ended off nicely with a trip to Melbourne followed immediately with a successful, crazy trekking expedition up Mount Rinjani in Lombok, Indonesia.

It was my first time going off on a solo adventure (despite it being only for a week). But I definitely need to go for another solo adventure in the near future.

Great to be back climbing after so long.

Cycled for 50km from Lilydale to Warburton

And yes! Brighton Beach. Feeling the wanderlust yet?

Atop Mount Rinjani! (the climb was insane, was literally dying)

The bestest bunch to do crazy things together

It would be inaccurate to say that 2016 got off to a bad start. Rather, I have never welcomed a year in such a hyped up, exciting fashion before and for that I figured that everything will only get better.

Indeed, it did get better, MET FUNFORLOUIS HAHA



Thereafter, it was a harsh return to reality. I scrambled to finish my resume for it to be sent to multiple companies hoping to secure a media-related internship particularly in the fields of videography or journalism.

For the past two years, my interest in filming and writing grew substantially (okay I did not quite write that much). When I was helplessly confined to my bed, I spent almost everyday finding interesting content to satisfy the inner desire of wanting to learn more of whatever that was going on around the world.

So I figured that the best way to learn was probably an internship?? After all, you get to see how the real world is like, how things are done and pick up new skills.

Yet, 12 companies and 2 weeks later, I did not get accepted by any of them. Bottom line is, the media industry is a really tough place to be in (and yes I had been warned).

Either way, it was disappointing having tried so hard just to craft out a resume let alone write that many cover letters. At one moment, I even doubted my own ability to do well in this industry. Were my writings sub-par? And my videos too amateurish?

To see yourself fail at meeting your first goal in 2016 can be kind of deflating especially when an opportunity of learning falls through your grasp.

But that was only a small goal in what is to be an exciting year.

I wanted to intern at a startup, learn how one is actually built while taking my journalism and videography game up a notch by learning from professionals. Despite that being out the picture, it is no excuse to drop that goal. Sure there isn’t anyone to guide me but who says you can’t learn stuff from the internet.

Keep the bigger picture in mind and work towards it. Come up with new plans that will lead you towards the larger goal and you are still on the right track.


For now, I have succumbed to the routine lifestyle. Ugh (have yet to muster the courage to drop everything and go.)


I will continue to make Youtube videos. The goal of making films is very much alive despite it being in its infancy. Determined to work really hard on it.


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Why I enjoy self-exploration

Inspired after exchanging ideas with my cousin, a topic I hold close to my heart.


The year I turned 18, was a year full of questions about myself. I never looked back ever since. The more I asked, the more I wanted to learn about myself- who exactly am I? What purpose do I have on this planet? What am I made to do? Don’t these questions bug from time to time?

Self-exploration can be a very painful thing to do. Especially when you start to realise that there isn’t something you’re terribly great at. Not only will this affect one’s self-esteem, it may reach a point where one may question his own self-worth. You become more vulnerable and overly-emotional too. This is one of the downsides there is to self-exploration- to be hurled into a crater of self-doubt and disbelief.

Sometimes, it can be such a laborious odyssey that many may opt to run away from the hardships in the quest to find themselves. There are numerous twists and turns throughout the journey and it’s a necessary part of self-exploration, to go on this seemingly long fruitless chase of what actually matters to you. If everything was presented to you on a plate, how much of it will you truly cherish?

Then, we have people claiming how self-exploration is a waste of time in our current accelerated modern day life. For practical reasons many will choose to go about their daily money-making routine without seriously considering the goodness self-exploration yields. That’s how we get middle-aged adults complaining of the mid-life crisis they’re susceptible to. See what happens when you don’t self-explore?

Seems intimidating huh? This whole self-exploration thing which can turn one into an emotional wreck with the insane amount of time one has to spend on amidst the hullaballoo of our contemporary world. However, I have grown to love it over the past two years.

Our world, no matter how perfect you perceive it to be, will always be imperfect. Everyone, everywhere are forever chasing to reach the next level. It is a choice to follow that endless race or to pull yourself out amongst everybody to find your path- to run your own race. It takes tremendous courage to head down this alternative route especially with the horrors you may encounter, but believe me, it’ll be worth it. The lesser we have of the latter kind of people, the more our world is at risk of becoming a factory house, churning out impassive, mechanical robots.

The thing we need to get right is that self-exploration is never a one day or one week, sometimes not even a one year thing. It takes years of patience to genuinely find yourself.

We all have our individual interests, an activity we take much comfort in. One amazingly fun part of self-exploration is the discovery of new pursuits. The average person will get by with matters that allows him to survive. He is willing to dwell in the heart of endless routines without the need of novelty, this is a sad pattern in our growing capitalistic society. Before it becomes our modern day culture, let’s buck the trend and ask yourself whether you have any burning desires within. Have you taken any action to placate that rampant wildebeest inside you? What are you waiting for? Even if you’re devoid of any specific interest, there’s got to be a thing or two which you have craved to try. Now is the time to drop all your uncertainties and spend time to find out more about that particular potential escapade. The fear to take these strides forward has left many in their shells, unaware of the vast opportunities available in the world.

The human mind is the most powerful one amongst all species to have graced this Earth. In every one of us lies something locked deep within our mind. Will. Don’t underestimate this little fella especially if you haven’t completely understand the prowess of the human mind. And guess which agent holds the key to enlightening us about it, I’m sure it’s pretty obvious by now. Self-exploration is the tool to realising the true capacity of our mind. Whenever a task seems too overwhelming, be slow to assume that it’s beyond your means but quick to confide in yourself. When your mind tries to convince you that there’s no way around it, be firm to say “no”. Move on to ask yourself, where exactly is causing you problems and don’t panic if there’s no instant solution.

Instead, continue asking yourself for the first step. The first step is critical. If you haven’t noticed, these questions are part of self-exploration. We are unearthing our inner competencies we never imagine to have possessed. It’s these small questions that picks the lock of the door for access to the human will. Never surrender no matter how dire the circumstance. Rather, embrace the practice of self-exploration and work your way, little by little to exercise the will we all have to heave you out of the quandary.

I’ve said so much but you might not necessarily buy whatever that have been uttered. What if somewhere, somehow, my self-exploration goes wrong, what should I then do? For sure there’s that apprehension when you’re just starting out. But one thing you have to understand is that in anything we do, risks are always involved in one way or another. The day you re-discover what you’re truly passionate for and decide to pursue it, the next thing you know you might be struggling to make ends meet. Or when you’re trying to find a resolution to a matter but only to fall into a bigger mess that leads to even more trauma. It’s all part of our natural survival instincts to harbour such thoughts, which is why I don’t insist you to take up self-exploration. It may not be for everyone but think of it this way. Without attempting to self-explore, will your predicament get any better? Absolutely not.

How then, should you go about it?

The question you should be asking is “What do you want to do with your life?” and you’ll probably be able to decide whether or not to hop on this voyage. Yes, ask yourself that. That might be of help.

“What do I want to do with my life?”

Hold on, I see what you just did there.psspas